Itís been a while since my last update. I find itís somewhat of a chore to do anything in my life beside poker, or work on poker game. This is not something Iím proud of but and itís definitely something I need to work on to improve my life and more importantly it probably wouldnít hurt my poker game J.

I havenít played any WSOP events in the past 10 days or so. I was finding it difficult to bring my A game to the tournaments and decided it wasnít worth playing if I couldnít give it my all, especially when I make so much money in side action.

The last 10 days have been pretty stressful for me online. I took a piece of a friend in some very good games when I decided to take a break from poker and go out to a nightclub with all my poker friends and he ended up having a very bad session. This happens but I find losses much harder to stomach when Iím not the one playing. Immediately, following that I won most of my share of the losses back the next day, then called it quits to go to dinner to celebrate my good friends Phil ìOMGClayAikenî Galfondís victory In the 5000 PLO with Re-buys event. Right as I was set to go to dinner I saw a juicy 100/200NL game on stars (which never runs), and some other good 50/100 games on full tilt. So being the addicted gambler and compulsive winner I am I jumped into the action and proceeded to win all of my winnings from the day back. After a fun night out which ended in all of playing like total fish in a 1/2 pot limit and 3/6 limit mixed game, I jumped back into action the next day and lost 9 buy-ins at 50/100 in 230 hands. I had just been running so good for so long that things like this never happened and it kind of shook my confidence. Since then Iíve won most of it back, but feeling myself getting tilted†and rattled brings back bad memories. Itís easy to intellectually rationalize the variance in poker but when you have to psychically sit there and play the hands and watch the money leaving your hands, account etc. itís hard to not feel negative emotions.

During bad runs I like to tell myself that this is what separates me from other pros. I can get up and quit when Iím running bad, and they canít. I can control my emotions and they canít. I wonít play other pros heads up when Iím stuck merely for the action and the chance of getting ëevení.

Anyways, I havenít played all morning and Iím getting the itch, good games have been running at 50/100NL+ for the first time in months and Iím trying to capitalize by putting in as many hands as possible.. So Iím going to go put in a session. Iíd like to congratulate my good friend Phil Galfond on his bracelet, the first of our group of friends to take it down. Iím going to try to write up some stories from the final table if there is a break in the online action today. Iíd also like to congratulate my good friend from high school Wesley Whybrew on taking down the Sunday Million for 100k+ this weekend. We started off playing in the same $5 home games together so OKEMOS MICHIGAN REPRESENT.